When “Keeping It Alive” Costs Too Much

Some days the bravest thing you do is admit the old plan is costing you more than it’s giving back.

Hello, hello — Standing on the Ledge.

Sorry about the short post yesterday. It was one of those days: little sleep, lots of driving, work on top of everything else. But hey — at least we have work. We still have a roof over our head. We’re still moving. We’re still here.

And yeah… we’re still dealing with health issues. That adds a weight you can’t “motivate” your way out of. It changes the math. It changes the pace. It changes what you can afford to pretend is fine.

I’m still deciding whether I shut the business down completely — but I’m leaning hard in that direction. Because why am I spending money to not make money? That isn’t loyalty. That isn’t grit. That’s just slow-motion damage.

From a sociological angle, this is what role strain looks like in real time: trying to be the provider, the fixer, the worker, the business owner, the healthy person, the “keep it together” guy — all at once — while the world keeps raising the price of staying functional. When the system squeezes, we often blame ourselves for not expanding to meet it. But a person isn’t an endless resource.

Psychologically, the last two months feeling like a year makes perfect sense. Stress distorts time. Decision-fatigue stacks up. Your mind starts running triage on everything — sleep, money, pain, obligations — and it turns into a constant background hum. The “whirlwind” isn’t drama. It’s cognitive load. It’s your nervous system trying to keep you upright.

And shutting something down? That can be an act of stabilization, not failure. Sometimes the cleanest form of progress is cutting what’s draining you so the rest of your life can finally breathe.

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So where are we going from here?

We continue soldiering on — but with a little more honesty about what “on” actually costs.

I’m working on the third book, and it’s starting to take shape. I think I know the form now: more personal, more reflective — still grounded in tools and protocols, but less about preaching them and more about living them. More narrative. More truth. Less “here’s what you should do” and more “here’s what it looked like when I had to do it.”

Because sometimes the most useful tool isn’t another checklist. It’s a voice that says: you’re not broken — you’re overloaded. And you can rebuild from overloaded. You can simplify. You can choose the next right move instead of the perfect one.

That’s it for today. Godspeed.