From collapse to traction—field notes for the climb back.
The author explores the concept of "freeze" as a response to trauma, distinct from laziness or avoidance. This physiological response acts as a protective measure during overwhelming situations. By recognizing this reaction, individuals can avoid impulsive actions driven by anger and make more strategic choices about their emotional responses during social disruptions.
The author reflects on their job search after transitioning from business owner to seeking general labor roles, emphasizing a desire for stability over status. They challenge societal perceptions of downward career movement, advocating for the choice of autonomy and sanity over pressure. The piece highlights the importance of prioritizing personal well-being.
The author reflects on the process of bargaining in response to non-death losses, which often involves analyzing past decisions to alleviate pain. This introspection can either help through pattern recognition or become self-punishing when it focuses on blame. Ultimately, the author emphasizes learning from the past and setting boundaries to foster growth.
The author reflects on spending New Year’s Eve alone, feeling the emptiness of past rituals as friends are lost and social bonds weaken. He grapples with a lack of personal connections, battling the weight of responsibilities without a support system. Despite feeling stuck, he chooses to persist and assess his situation.
This month was marked by chaos, sleepless nights, and the collapse of expectations. The author faced personal and systemic struggles, realizing the need to redefine resilience and boundaries. Instead of seeking change, they focused on sustaining their presence amidst uncertainty, embracing small actions and acknowledging past wounds as guidance.
The author reflects on a recent experience of feeling stuck and unproductive, grappling with internal struggles that led to procrastination. They emphasize the importance of movement, even in small ways, to combat stagnation. The writer shares plans to continue documenting their journey through various platforms while remaining open to change.
The writer expresses feelings of anger, embarrassment, and sadness due to perceived failures in relationships and a lack of support during difficult times. Despite sitting alone and struggling with these emotions, they acknowledge the support from some individuals. They grapple with the need to continue fulfilling responsibilities while seeking strength amidst their own challenges.
Day 26 reflects on the transition between outdated and yet-to-be-defined rules. It highlights the tension of moving forward uncertainly, stressing the importance of small actions rather than grand decisions. Recognizing past failures as valuable lessons, it advocates for setting boundaries and choosing what not to rebuild, ultimately urging movement toward the future.
The author reflects on personal struggles following a doctor’s appointment that revealed health concerns tied to work stress. They highlight how endurance in toxic environments can mask true wellbeing, exploring the gradual breakdown that led to a reevaluation of their life story. Emphasizing resilience, they vow to continue sharing their journey forward.
The author expresses profound self-doubt and exhaustion on Day 18 of a personal journey, questioning the impact of their efforts. Despite feeling drained and uncertain, they choose to continue, recognizing that doubt signifies awareness rather than failure. Their message conveys resilience amidst struggle, emphasizing the importance of perseverance even in bleak moments.
Standing on the Ledge 