From collapse to traction—field notes for the climb back.
Personal Log — “Blech. What a day.” Standing on the Ledge — Rebuilding from the Rubble Today felt like one of those days where everything technically happens, but nothing lands. I’m still stuck in that 3–4 a.m. loop, and it’s starting to cost me. When I’m waking up late, the day doesn’t feel like it … Continue reading Navigating Emotional Work Challenges: A Log Entry
One month after a significant work contract ended, the author reflects on personal growth amidst uncertainty. They emphasize learning from experiences, setting clear boundaries, and staying proactive in rebuilding their life. By focusing on writing and pursuing further education, they aim to navigate challenges while balancing progress with self-care.
The author reflects on their dual identity as Kevin McLaughlin, the legal name, and Lugh Sulian, the working name, which symbolizes a tool for truth. They share their journey from being unnoticed in the background to confronting systemic issues in business, ultimately documenting their experience of rebuilding after a collapse, aiming to support others facing similar struggles.
The author reflects on spending New Year’s Eve alone, feeling the emptiness of past rituals as friends are lost and social bonds weaken. He grapples with a lack of personal connections, battling the weight of responsibilities without a support system. Despite feeling stuck, he chooses to persist and assess his situation.
The writer expresses feelings of anger, embarrassment, and sadness due to perceived failures in relationships and a lack of support during difficult times. Despite sitting alone and struggling with these emotions, they acknowledge the support from some individuals. They grapple with the need to continue fulfilling responsibilities while seeking strength amidst their own challenges.
Day 26 reflects on the transition between outdated and yet-to-be-defined rules. It highlights the tension of moving forward uncertainly, stressing the importance of small actions rather than grand decisions. Recognizing past failures as valuable lessons, it advocates for setting boundaries and choosing what not to rebuild, ultimately urging movement toward the future.
The author reflects on a day that feels out of order, possibly Day 20, amidst ongoing uncertainty. They recount a doctor's appointment mix-up, symbolizing how upheaval distorts time perception. Despite feeling lost, they emphasize resilience and the importance of maintaining progress during turbulent times. They promise to share more soon, concluding with hope.
The author reflects on a transformative journey of self-discovery and empowerment after overcoming challenges. On day 17, they embrace a newfound calm, letting go of external pressures and critics. This day signifies personal reclamation, where self-defined standards of excellence take precedence, allowing for a quieter, more confident sense of self.
Standing on the Ledge 