Deciding Between Job Offers: Key Considerations

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Standing on the Ledge — Personal Log

Note to self: I’m going to try and stop using AI to generate my thoughts for me directly — or to do my thinking for me about my thoughts. I’m fine using tools to organize, format, and clean things up. But the steering wheel? That stays with me.

1) Yesterday wasn’t perfect — but it was proof

Yesterday, I managed to knock quite a few things off my list. That made me feel a little bit better. Not because the whole situation is “fixed.” Not because I’m suddenly floating above it all. Just because I got traction.

I’ve written before that when life gets too big, I don’t need a grand rebuild — I need small fires. One drawer. One errand. One call. One thing I can actually finish and close, so the day doesn’t turn into debate instead of motion.

2) The job thread: A or B

I got a response back from a job, and I’m not sure if I’m going to get it or not. They’re asking me which site I’d choose: A or B.

I know a bit more about B than I do A. So I replied honestly: both have their merits, but I don’t know enough about Location A to make a clean decision. I asked for clarification on what Location A actually entails. And so far… nothing back.

Now the brain starts doing what the brain does.

  • Did I just blow it by asking a question?
  • Are they going to read that as “too picky”?
  • Or is it just… normal due diligence?

Let’s face it: the details matter. The work involved is a major decision factor. Asking what I’m walking into isn’t being difficult — it’s me trying to be competent. I’m not asking for special treatment. I’m asking for basic information so I can choose intelligently.

If the silence continues, then I’ll deal with it the same way I deal with everything else right now: short, clean, and forward-facing. I’m open to either option — I just need the facts to choose. That’s not drama. That’s a grown-up sentence.

3) Tomorrow: paperwork and shutting down chapters

Tomorrow’s going to be paperwork — the kind involved in setting down the business properly. This is the “unsexy rebuild” part. Not motivation. Not inspiration. Just forms, steps, closing loops, doing it correctly.

And I know myself: paperwork is friction. It multiplies quietly. It drains energy without looking like it’s doing anything. So I’m going to treat it like I’ve treated other friction points — reduce the startup cost, keep the task contained, and make the next move obvious.

4) World noise (and why I’m not feeding it today)

I’m trying really hard right now to stay off of — or at least stay out of — world events. Not because I don’t care. Because I do. Too much, some days.

Two songs keep coming to mind when I think about what’s happening out there:

  • I’m Afraid of Americans — David Bowie
  • For What It’s Worth — Buffalo Springfield

It’s scary what’s happening. And unfortunately, all I can really do — or all most people can really do — is stand by and watch events unfold.

So today, I’m choosing a smaller intake. Less doom. Less spiraling. More attention on what I can actually move with my own hands.

5) What I’m doing next (so I don’t spiral)

  • Keep the rule: tools can organize — they don’t get to replace my thinking.
  • Keep the scale small: one contained task, one finish line.
  • Keep it factual: write down what I know, what I asked, and what I’m waiting on.
  • Keep the boundary clean: I don’t need to over-explain to be taken seriously.

That’s it for today.

Godspeed.

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Lugh Sulian Standing on the Ledge · Rebuilding from the Rubble Lugh Sulian is a working name for a working moment. This profile exists to hold Standing on the Ledge: Rebuilding from the Rubble—an ongoing, real-time record of what happens after collapse, when old rules stop functioning and new ones haven’t yet earned trust. This is not myth reenactment. Not spiritual bypass. Not curated healing. It’s a field journal from the threshold. The name Lugh points toward skill, clarity, and responsibility carried with awareness. Sulian gestures toward sight—what can be seen when illusion drops away and pretending becomes too expensive. Together, they frame the posture of this work: to look clearly, act deliberately, and refuse to rebuild what already failed. Through short-form video, spoken reflection, and long-form writing, this project explores: Collapse without spectacle Responsibility without authority Burnout as a systems problem, not a personal flaw Pagan cycles as lived practice, not aesthetic Small fires instead of grand rebuilds This space is intentionally unfinished. It documents: Standing still without freezing Moving forward without rushing Learning from rubble instead of hiding it Unplugged-Pagan.com serves as the grounding—seasonal awareness, ritual stripped of performance, and meaning built from experience rather than doctrine. Standing on the Ledge is one expression of that grounding, focused on the human cost of broken systems and the slow work of rebuilding integrity. This is not a teaching platform. It’s a shared watchpost. If you’re here, you’re likely between versions of yourself—tired, alert, uncertain, and still standing. You don’t need answers yet. You need honesty, boundaries, and permission to move at the speed of truth. No conclusions offered. No certainty promised. Still on the ledge. Still watching. Still working the rubble. Godspeed. Optional Short Versions (for profile headers or bios) Short bio (Facebook / site header): Threshold work. Pagan-rooted, process-driven. Documenting collapse, clarity, and the refusal to rebuild what failed.

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